Falling In Love And Loving It!

I am getting married two weeks from today. A few months ago, my fiancee' bought me a horse. I think about her now almost as much as I think about him! Is this normal? After a long, hard day working at my second job, I get into the car with him, lean up on his shoulder, and tell him just how much I missed him that day... and how much I missed Missy. We both stare at her constantly when we're at the farm, commenting on how pretty she is, and how smart. In church, my eyes light up when someone asks me about my horse. Naturally, my eyes light up when I talk about Doug, or the wedding, or things of that nature- I am getting REALLY excited now. But should I be just as thrilled to say that I am going to the farm to take care of my mare? Maybe I'm just weird. I do know that I am blessed to have both the man of my dreams and the horse of a lifetime. I am so happy to envision spending a lifetime with both of them. Sure, I'm sure there will be struggles at times, but they both bring me so much joy that I can't see being depressed for long. If Doug hurts my feelings (accidentally, of course), I'll just go ride my horse. If Missy dumps me, I'll just go out to eat with Doug. Probably for Chinese buffet, if I'm able to walk. That will make me happy again, I know. Anyway, I truly feel as though no one else on earth can possibly know what it feels like to be me right now. I am riding on cloud 9.

Oh yeah- I cantered a few steps on Missy the other day. It's been so long since I have ridden any horse at the canter that I wasn't prepared for it when it finally happened, and my reaction (although I had been asking her to do it!) took her by surprise as well, and she quickly went back to a trot and walk. Aaugghh! I was so nervous! Doug cantered on her 1 1/2 times around the roundpen tonight, so I know I haven't ruined her. Yikes.

I LOVE MY FIANCEE'. I LOVE MY HORSE. I of course love my four cats and dog too, but I REALLY love Doug and Missy.